It's a little late but I got to see my son!! My oldest son, Brian came to see me for New Years! He spent New Years Eve with me! Nobody knows how happy that made me after not seeing my sons for about 2 years. You think they would be encouraged to go see their mother. My baby is 17 and he's so tall. That was the greatest New Year I've had ever. I enjoyed him being here. My dad's tradition is to shoot his gun (has pellets in them) but my son got to do it. I wish my other son, Joshua would come see me. He should ask his father to bring him here as was ordered by the court. I MISS him so much! It hurts to not be able to see him. I know he'll come see me soon. I'm giving him time I guess. 
 I'm worried I won't be able to ever get my license. I have a low attention span and just from getting the brain injury from my car accident, I worry I won't be able to pay attention to everything. I've driven before and it was hard paying attention to my speed and on the road. I have been afraid to drive all these years because of my car accident, but it's not fun having to depend on someone to take me here and there. I had to depend on my husband all those years and to not be able to take your kids here or there really sucked. I just felt so useless. He was supposed to help me and take me out driving but he either had no time and he didn't try to encourage me any to go drive. But in the end it's still my responsibility and I was always just to afraid. It's something I have to do.